," intones Johanna Heilman repeatedly on the seven-minute opening track to her debut solo album."I'm a Stone" sets the eight-song cycle with an imperative urgency, slowly strummed out in an almost meditative shoegaze reverb as Heilman reckons with the revolt and recovery of her body from cancer.
Disease becomes numbness and ennui , desperation and resignation , frustration and determination all ultimately hanging in search of a sound to cling to for meaning and the sheer expression of the unfathomable. When the closing"Finale" finally kicks in with a beautiful if ambiguous relief, it comes not as triumph but as metamorphosis and realization of mortality.